Drowning in Editing

Hey WordPress Family,

I am editing chapters 1-6 right now and I really feel like I’m drowning in editing it. It’s like my golly, I now understand why some people prefer math over English…Not that I EVER will. lol. But really, this is just a lot to take in. As someone who enjoyed the social part of school but not school itself, a lot of these rules are either new to me or I have just completely forgotten them or my school simply didn’t teach this much. Either way, I feel like it’s taking forever just to edit ONE chapter completely. geez…


But, I’m alive and I know true God….I think I’ll be ok.

Layla has been itching for me to write what she told me to write, but she has to wait. Who knows how long she will be patient with me. I think I will change her ex-boyfriend’s name, though. He has the same name as my ex (Michael) and I don’t think about him, even when I’m writing about Layla’s ex but last night, I had a dream about him. Granted, I was in a benedryl stupor, lol, but still. It disturbed me. So yeah, I need to think of a new name….the name Curtis is jumping out at me….lol. Layla just agreed in my head. I wish she would be quiet and mind her business. Welp, Curtis it is.

I hope everyone is staying healthy and for all those getting sick or who are sick, I feel your pain and get well!!!!

May God Bless You All!




She sat in the closet, feeling ants march along her skin. She was so hungry but knew if she cried, it would only make it worse. In the past when she cried, he would hit her from her chest down to her stomach. As her stomach growled, she thought about how long she had been there. To a six year old, it seemed like forever. In reality, she had been there since six p.m. the night before.  Wishing she didn’t have to stay there, she heard the voice of her mother, her real mother, and longed for her.

“Felicity!” she would say. “Aren’t you hungry? Do you want me to eat your food? Maybe I should give it to Bird Bird? Or maybe Mickey Mouse? Do you want them to have your food?”

“No, mommy! I want my food!”

“Then you should be a good girl and eat it. Not everyone is as blessed as you to have food.”

“Does Big Bird eat food?

“Oh yes. His food isn’t as good as yours though.”

“What does he eat?”

“He eats bird seeds.”

“How does he eat it?”

Her mom came over to her with a mischievous smile. “You want to know how he eats? Like this!” And she would grab Felicity, and peck her with her lips all over her face.

Felicity giggled wildly and would beg her mother to stop. “Ok mommy! Ok!”

“Do you understand how he eats now?”

Still giggling, she said “Yes mommy, I get it!”

“Ok then. Now, eat your food.”

A lone tear fell from her eyes. She missed her mommy and wondered why she went away.

‘If mommy was here, I wouldn’t be hungry. Maybe I should have just eaten my food.’ she thought, blaming herself. ‘If I would have eaten my food, mommy wouldn’t have went away.’

As she sniffled, he came in. “Are you crying in there?” he asked as he yanked the door open.

Felicity quickly wiped her face with the back of her hand and shook her head ‘no.’

“Good girl. Are you ready to come out of the closet now?”

She nodded her head at him.

“Good. Next time, when we play ‘lick the lollipop,’ you will play it right, right?”

Again, she nodded her head.

“Good girl. Come out and get ready for school.”

Without looking into her foster dad’s eyes, she crawled out of the closet and ran into her room, closing the door behind her. She slumped down to the floor, crying silently and wanting her mommy.

By the Grace of God…

I finally figured out what to do about my character dilemma: I WILL USE THEM BOTH AS MAIN CHARACTERS!!!!

It took the last couple hours to work it out, but I got it. I got it. I GOT IT!!!! I just want to scream it to the mountain tops!!!!!!

……there’s no mountains in Anaheim, though….

It was called Caramel Teardrops, but ive since changed the name…i will tell you guys as it gets closer to the finish! =)

OMGEE I love it!!!! =) Thank God!

Ok, I thought I’d leave you guys with that for now. It’s already after 1am and I need to wake up for 6 tomorrow…today.

I do have a question, though. At what point do you put a preview or snippet of your chapters? Should I wait until after it’s edited and everything? Do I do it now when it’s in the beginning stages so that others can review and tell me what they think? Please advise!

Sorry if I bore you guys with this process and constantly write about it. lol. My other “friends” (some are actually my friends- I’m just being bitter right now) don’t seem to have much time for me and my book these days, so I have to take it to the net.

Ok, but really, good night everyone. Thanks for reading! 😉 (I hope you did!)
May God Bless You All,

PS: I realized I am a colossal idiot. lol. So in part of the story, the daughter gets taken away from the mother bc she develops a mental illness. Here I am, googling like there’s no tomorrow when it hits me: MY MOM IS A SOCIAL WORKER! I COULD JUST ASK HER!!!! lol. I swear I was a blonde either in heaven or in the womb because that there was blonde moment! Lol. Good night everyone!